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Chapter 813 Can't Afford to Offend, Can't Afford to Offend
Ubu Saika was taken aback by Chi Feichei's straightforward words. She tentatively asked, "Then... what about the Organization?"
"It depends on ability," Chi Feichei said hoarsely.
"The Organization is still better," Ubu Saika concluded seriously.
Chi Feichei made no comment.
The Organization indeed determines status based on ability and loyalty, but he couldn't guarantee whether they were just 'tools'. Moreover, the Organization was even more ruthless, and discarded 'tools' were also completely destroyed.
He couldn't say these words, Rum might be eavesdropping.
Ubu Saika reached a conclusion for herself and returned to the previous topic, "Takayama Otome is the Illegitimate Daughter of the third generation of the Kyokuto Society, doesn't she have any status either?"
"It's all the same," Chi Feichei parked the Car at the Street Corner. Ahead was Ubu Saika's current Residence. As he waited for Ubu Saika to get out of the Car, he suddenly asked hoarsely, "What was the Cat you used to keep like?"
"Huh?" Ubu Saika got out of the Car, holding her backpack. She didn't understand why Chi Feichei suddenly asked this, but she still shared with a smile, "It was a yellow and white Stripe Cat, not a noble breed, but its Eyes were as Blue Eyes as the clearest blue Sky, very beautiful."
Chi Feichei nodded and didn't ask further.
"Then I'll go back first, goodbye, thank you for tonight!" Ubu Saika closed the Car Door with a smile, turned around, and walked towards her Residence alone.
This Street was far from the Commercial Street. The Roadside was lined with three- to five-story Apartment Buildings, with a full row of Cars parked, making it generally quiet.
As the evening lights came on, the Windows of each Household were lit, and occasionally the sound of a TV Program drifted out.
Chi Feichei sat in the Car, relit a Cigarette, took out his Mobile Phone, and replied to the Email from Yingqu Yan Nan.
It was clear that Ubu Saika's Mother must have educated and protected her very well before. Although she had never seen her Father since she was little, Ubu Saika's nature was not bad, and her Personality was cheerful and lively, and she had a way of Getting Along with people.
Before coming, he had also talked about Ubu Saika in an Email with Gin.
Gin asked him why he made such an Arrangement for Ubu Saika. His reply was: She is different from us, her blood is warm.
However, after Ubu Saika's Mother remarried, she seemed to become an insurmountable hurdle and burden in her Mother's Heart.
From the moment her Mother resolutely stood on her Stepfather's side, the balance in her Mother's Heart had already tilted.
As Parents, just two or three years are enough to make a Girl insecure. Her Personality may not seem to have changed much, but when faced with Danger and setbacks, she will try to escape at the first moment, be overly sensitive, and have an emotional dependence tendency.
People with emotional dependence tendencies, after relieving Pressure, gaining a Sense of security, or a pleasant Mood through A, are prone to become dependent on A and place too much Emotion on A.
A can be a Human, an Animal, or an object.
Afterwards, once they need a Sense of security or need to relieve Worry, they will start looking for A. If they can't find it, they will become uneasy and experience Depressed Mood. At the same time, they will also be afraid of being abandoned and will not hesitate to change their outlook on Life and Personal Interest.
This type of person is also the Crowd most prone to developing Stockholm Syndrome.
For Ubu Saika, this A should have been the Cat before. Due to her Parents' neglect of her Emotion, when she was under Pressure and in a Depressed Mood, the Cat became her companion and the object of her confidences. She also subsequently placed her excess Emotion on the Cat, and gradually became accustomed to placing too much Emotion on a certain thing. After the Cat was lost, Ubu Saika, who had lost her emotional Reliance, transferred her emotional Reliance on the Cat to him.
As For the Reason...
Chi Feichei raised his Eyes and looked at the Rearview Mirror. The Eyes on his Disguise Mask were also Blue Eyes.
He had always found it strange. At Training Base No. 0331, his contact with Ubu Saika was not much. Why would Ubu Saika rely on him?
Now he Understood.
Actually, at their First Time meeting, when he Intervene and injured someone in front of Ubu Saika, and after Ubu Saika was taken into the Car by them, the Girl felt her Life was under Threat, and she was also Isolate and isolated in the Car, uneasy about her future situation. Then, seeing his Blue Eyes after Disguise, her Mentality's self-defense mechanism equated him with the Cat, in order to escape excessive Mental Pressure.
After Ubu Saika herself was unharmed and left in Safety, grateful Emotion naturally arose in her Heart.
In other words, at that time, Ubu Saika already had a tendency towards Stockholm Syndrome. The 'perpetrator' was naturally him, the person who forced Ubu Saika to Get On The Bus. It was just that at that time, Ubu Saika had not yet developed a strong sense of Reliance, but had only forgiven his 'persecution'.
Afterwards, at Training Base No. 0331, Ubu Saika truly developed Stockholm Syndrome, while ignoring others and making him, who already had a desire for Reliance, her main Goal.
All of this, not only was he unaware of it, but probably Ubu Saika herself had not noticed it either.
Chi Feichei silently sorted out his thoughts, finished smoking a Cigarette, extinguished it in the Ashtray in the Car, looked at the Email from Ubu Saika on his Mobile Phone saying she had already returned Home, replied with 'Tomorrow endure the Pain, Takayama Otome will take the initiative to talk to you, then go with the flow', and drove away.
Having figured out the ins and outs of the Matters, he no longer needed to rack his Brain about the Reason whenever he had free Time.
He really couldn't muster any Interest in underdeveloped young Girls. Even if the Relationship was good, he saw everyone as his own Daughter. Emotionally sensitive young Girls were even more Troublesome, too much of a waste of Work Time.
Can't afford to provoke, can't afford to provoke.
...
The Next Day, the Sky was already drizzling Rain early in the morning.
Ubu Saika arrived at Takayama Otome's Tattoo Shop on time, paid the 50,000 Japanese Yen needed for the Tattoo in full, and also took out a Diagram and handed it to Takayama Otome, "Do you think this is okay?"
Takayama Otome took the Diagram and Looked at it, raising her eyebrows, "You drew this yourself?"
The Diagram depicted a Butterfly spreading its Wings to fly, with smooth Pattern Lines. The Wings fluttering on both sides of the Butterfly were misaligned, and when combined, it looked like a Fox Mask with upturned eyes.
The two Animals were completely fused, a very interesting creative Idea.
"Is it good-looking?" Ubu Saika asked with a smile.
"Indeed, it's not bad," Takayama Otome Staring at the Drawing on the Diagram and Looked again. "Black?"
Ubu Saika nodded, "Just Black."
Takayama Otome raised her Eyes and Looked at Ubu Saika, thinking that this Girl was probably out of her Mind. Since it wasn't a colored Tattoo, why bother coming to her to suffer with Hand-carved Craftsmanship? She advised, "You should Consider it carefully. If you just want to try it out, go to the Tattoo Shop over on the Commercial Street to have it drawn on. It can probably be washed off in about a month, it won't hurt, and you won't regret it. Even if you want to Tattoo it on, those places can probably get it done in about three Hours with a Tattoo Machine. It will probably hurt for six or seven Hours here."
"I have Considered it," Ubu Saika Nod.
Seeing that there were not many people on the Street on a Rainy Day, Takayama Otome simply went to close the Shop Door. She then took out 20,000 Japanese Yen from a stack of Money and handed it to Ubu Saika before turning around and going to the inner room behind the Curtain. "This is your refund. Come with me. Let me make it clear first, if you can't stand the Pain, you can stop halfway, but if you decide not to continue the Tattoo, I won't refund you the Money."
"Understood," Ubu Saika followed.
Takayama Otome placed a handful of Engraving Knives with fine Needles embedded in their tips and Steel Handles in front of Ubu Saika, which looked very much like a large-scale execution site.
Ubu Saika always felt that Takayama Otome was deliberately trying to scare her, and found it a bit funny. She sat on the Cushion with her Back to Takayama Otome, took off her Coat and Shirt, hugged her legs, and sat up straight, revealing her smooth Back.
Takayama Otome raised her Eyes and saw the Girl's delicate Skin Back, feeling that it was too much of a waste. She forcibly restrained the urge to drive her away, Step Forward and repeatedly confirmed the Location with Ubu Saika, and prepared to Start Doing it with a sullen Face.
Time passed minute by minute. The Ink-dipped Needle tips quickly pierced into the Girl's Back near her right shoulder, and the Skin quickly became red and swollen.
Takayama Otome looked at the Girl sitting with her Back to her, hugging her knees, and was a little surprised, "It will hurt even more next, do you want to Rest for a while?"
Judging from her Skin, this should be a pampered Girl. After two Hours, she was actually enduring it silently and motionlessly, which suddenly reminded her of herself back then.
At that Age, she was also about fifteen or sixteen years old. She was recognized and taken back by her Old Dad, who was in a high position of power. It took her a month to complete the dense Tattoo. She endured it by gritting her teeth, relying entirely on the Perseverance gained from the bitterness in her Heart and her Expectation for the Future.
Ubu Saika felt the burning Pain in her Back and said with a smile, "No Need, I can still bear it."
Compared to being abandoned, that's nothing.
She just regretted a bit that if she hadn't been able to see Raki last night, and if Raki hadn't listened to her talk about the Worry in her Heart, she would have been able to endure it even more.
Those Matters, she didn't want to Say to Kurahashi Kenichi.
Perhaps it was because her Mother repeated day after day that her Father was an irresponsible Man who had Leave them. Even though she could feel Kurahashi Kenichi's regret and his Care About her, she still couldn't feel close to him.
"Whether or Not to add some other Color?" Takayama Otome didn't know what Ubu Saika was Think in her Heart, but she liked resilient Girls, and her Tone unconsciously softened a lot. "Add some Red to the Pattern, the Pain is the same, but it will look more like a Fox Mask. If you like other Colors, I can also help you Adjust it, orange, Blue, Purple..."
Ubu Saika shook her Head, "No, just Black. He Seemingly likes Black."
"Boyfriend?" Takayama Otome didn't insist anymore. The Needles on the Engraving Knife in her Hand pierced into the red and swollen Skin one by one, without showing mercy. She didn't want to ruin this Pattern by easing up on the Strength. With this Girl's stubbornness, if it was ruined, she would probably still fuss about how to fix it, which would be even more Painful.
"Hiss..." Ubu Saika gasped, "No."
"Then it's someone you like?" After Takayama Otome asked, seeing Ubu Saika's Silence, she continued, "Is he a Yakuza Member? If it's for Others, to suffer and leave behind something that can't be washed off for a Lifetime, that's too foolish."
"I just want to remember him," Ubu Saika's voice was very soft and serious, "He makes me feel that there is still Reliance and Meaning in my Life."
Takayama Otome chuckled, "How old are you? Acting like there's no Meaning to being alive?"
Ubu Saika Thought for a moment, is the Meaning of existence to be for the Father who Leave their Mother and Daughter? For the Mother who abandoned her? For those Friends who would just watch her being taken away when they encountered Troublesome situations? Or for the new Classmates now who can't really Understand her?
Keeping Secrets will lead to Isolate.
Fortunately, she had Raki. Even if they couldn't usually meet, at least it made her feel that there were still things worth Expectation in Life, and there was someone who could listen to her chatter, waiting for her to report Safety after returning Home before driving away in the Car.
Last night, after she sent the Email, she stood behind the Window, watching the Car parked on the Street leave. She saw very clearly that Raki left after waiting for her News and waiting for her Reply 'Safety'.
Takayama Otome didn't expect Ubu Saika to give her any meaningful answer either, and continued talking about Other Things, "Never Mind, it's too late for you to regret it now. Are you a High School Student?"
"Middle School Student," Ubu Saika frowned and endured the Pain, "A Student from Uehara Middle School."
"I regret it," Takayama Otome complained, "If someone reports it, I'll be in Troublesome."
(End of Chapter)
Ubu Saika was taken aback by Chi Feichei's straightforward words. She tentatively asked, "Then... what about the Organization?"
"It depends on ability," Chi Feichei said hoarsely.
"The Organization is still better," Ubu Saika concluded seriously.
Chi Feichei made no comment.
The Organization indeed determines status based on ability and loyalty, but he couldn't guarantee whether they were just 'tools'. Moreover, the Organization was even more ruthless, and discarded 'tools' were also completely destroyed.
He couldn't say these words, Rum might be eavesdropping.
Ubu Saika reached a conclusion for herself and returned to the previous topic, "Takayama Otome is the Illegitimate Daughter of the third generation of the Kyokuto Society, doesn't she have any status either?"
"It's all the same," Chi Feichei parked the Car at the Street Corner. Ahead was Ubu Saika's current Residence. As he waited for Ubu Saika to get out of the Car, he suddenly asked hoarsely, "What was the Cat you used to keep like?"
"Huh?" Ubu Saika got out of the Car, holding her backpack. She didn't understand why Chi Feichei suddenly asked this, but she still shared with a smile, "It was a yellow and white Stripe Cat, not a noble breed, but its Eyes were as Blue Eyes as the clearest blue Sky, very beautiful."
Chi Feichei nodded and didn't ask further.
"Then I'll go back first, goodbye, thank you for tonight!" Ubu Saika closed the Car Door with a smile, turned around, and walked towards her Residence alone.
This Street was far from the Commercial Street. The Roadside was lined with three- to five-story Apartment Buildings, with a full row of Cars parked, making it generally quiet.
As the evening lights came on, the Windows of each Household were lit, and occasionally the sound of a TV Program drifted out.
Chi Feichei sat in the Car, relit a Cigarette, took out his Mobile Phone, and replied to the Email from Yingqu Yan Nan.
It was clear that Ubu Saika's Mother must have educated and protected her very well before. Although she had never seen her Father since she was little, Ubu Saika's nature was not bad, and her Personality was cheerful and lively, and she had a way of Getting Along with people.
Before coming, he had also talked about Ubu Saika in an Email with Gin.
Gin asked him why he made such an Arrangement for Ubu Saika. His reply was: She is different from us, her blood is warm.
However, after Ubu Saika's Mother remarried, she seemed to become an insurmountable hurdle and burden in her Mother's Heart.
From the moment her Mother resolutely stood on her Stepfather's side, the balance in her Mother's Heart had already tilted.
As Parents, just two or three years are enough to make a Girl insecure. Her Personality may not seem to have changed much, but when faced with Danger and setbacks, she will try to escape at the first moment, be overly sensitive, and have an emotional dependence tendency.
People with emotional dependence tendencies, after relieving Pressure, gaining a Sense of security, or a pleasant Mood through A, are prone to become dependent on A and place too much Emotion on A.
A can be a Human, an Animal, or an object.
Afterwards, once they need a Sense of security or need to relieve Worry, they will start looking for A. If they can't find it, they will become uneasy and experience Depressed Mood. At the same time, they will also be afraid of being abandoned and will not hesitate to change their outlook on Life and Personal Interest.
This type of person is also the Crowd most prone to developing Stockholm Syndrome.
For Ubu Saika, this A should have been the Cat before. Due to her Parents' neglect of her Emotion, when she was under Pressure and in a Depressed Mood, the Cat became her companion and the object of her confidences. She also subsequently placed her excess Emotion on the Cat, and gradually became accustomed to placing too much Emotion on a certain thing. After the Cat was lost, Ubu Saika, who had lost her emotional Reliance, transferred her emotional Reliance on the Cat to him.
As For the Reason...
Chi Feichei raised his Eyes and looked at the Rearview Mirror. The Eyes on his Disguise Mask were also Blue Eyes.
He had always found it strange. At Training Base No. 0331, his contact with Ubu Saika was not much. Why would Ubu Saika rely on him?
Now he Understood.
Actually, at their First Time meeting, when he Intervene and injured someone in front of Ubu Saika, and after Ubu Saika was taken into the Car by them, the Girl felt her Life was under Threat, and she was also Isolate and isolated in the Car, uneasy about her future situation. Then, seeing his Blue Eyes after Disguise, her Mentality's self-defense mechanism equated him with the Cat, in order to escape excessive Mental Pressure.
After Ubu Saika herself was unharmed and left in Safety, grateful Emotion naturally arose in her Heart.
In other words, at that time, Ubu Saika already had a tendency towards Stockholm Syndrome. The 'perpetrator' was naturally him, the person who forced Ubu Saika to Get On The Bus. It was just that at that time, Ubu Saika had not yet developed a strong sense of Reliance, but had only forgiven his 'persecution'.
Afterwards, at Training Base No. 0331, Ubu Saika truly developed Stockholm Syndrome, while ignoring others and making him, who already had a desire for Reliance, her main Goal.
All of this, not only was he unaware of it, but probably Ubu Saika herself had not noticed it either.
Chi Feichei silently sorted out his thoughts, finished smoking a Cigarette, extinguished it in the Ashtray in the Car, looked at the Email from Ubu Saika on his Mobile Phone saying she had already returned Home, replied with 'Tomorrow endure the Pain, Takayama Otome will take the initiative to talk to you, then go with the flow', and drove away.
Having figured out the ins and outs of the Matters, he no longer needed to rack his Brain about the Reason whenever he had free Time.
He really couldn't muster any Interest in underdeveloped young Girls. Even if the Relationship was good, he saw everyone as his own Daughter. Emotionally sensitive young Girls were even more Troublesome, too much of a waste of Work Time.
Can't afford to provoke, can't afford to provoke.
...
The Next Day, the Sky was already drizzling Rain early in the morning.
Ubu Saika arrived at Takayama Otome's Tattoo Shop on time, paid the 50,000 Japanese Yen needed for the Tattoo in full, and also took out a Diagram and handed it to Takayama Otome, "Do you think this is okay?"
Takayama Otome took the Diagram and Looked at it, raising her eyebrows, "You drew this yourself?"
The Diagram depicted a Butterfly spreading its Wings to fly, with smooth Pattern Lines. The Wings fluttering on both sides of the Butterfly were misaligned, and when combined, it looked like a Fox Mask with upturned eyes.
The two Animals were completely fused, a very interesting creative Idea.
"Is it good-looking?" Ubu Saika asked with a smile.
"Indeed, it's not bad," Takayama Otome Staring at the Drawing on the Diagram and Looked again. "Black?"
Ubu Saika nodded, "Just Black."
Takayama Otome raised her Eyes and Looked at Ubu Saika, thinking that this Girl was probably out of her Mind. Since it wasn't a colored Tattoo, why bother coming to her to suffer with Hand-carved Craftsmanship? She advised, "You should Consider it carefully. If you just want to try it out, go to the Tattoo Shop over on the Commercial Street to have it drawn on. It can probably be washed off in about a month, it won't hurt, and you won't regret it. Even if you want to Tattoo it on, those places can probably get it done in about three Hours with a Tattoo Machine. It will probably hurt for six or seven Hours here."
"I have Considered it," Ubu Saika Nod.
Seeing that there were not many people on the Street on a Rainy Day, Takayama Otome simply went to close the Shop Door. She then took out 20,000 Japanese Yen from a stack of Money and handed it to Ubu Saika before turning around and going to the inner room behind the Curtain. "This is your refund. Come with me. Let me make it clear first, if you can't stand the Pain, you can stop halfway, but if you decide not to continue the Tattoo, I won't refund you the Money."
"Understood," Ubu Saika followed.
Takayama Otome placed a handful of Engraving Knives with fine Needles embedded in their tips and Steel Handles in front of Ubu Saika, which looked very much like a large-scale execution site.
Ubu Saika always felt that Takayama Otome was deliberately trying to scare her, and found it a bit funny. She sat on the Cushion with her Back to Takayama Otome, took off her Coat and Shirt, hugged her legs, and sat up straight, revealing her smooth Back.
Takayama Otome raised her Eyes and saw the Girl's delicate Skin Back, feeling that it was too much of a waste. She forcibly restrained the urge to drive her away, Step Forward and repeatedly confirmed the Location with Ubu Saika, and prepared to Start Doing it with a sullen Face.
Time passed minute by minute. The Ink-dipped Needle tips quickly pierced into the Girl's Back near her right shoulder, and the Skin quickly became red and swollen.
Takayama Otome looked at the Girl sitting with her Back to her, hugging her knees, and was a little surprised, "It will hurt even more next, do you want to Rest for a while?"
Judging from her Skin, this should be a pampered Girl. After two Hours, she was actually enduring it silently and motionlessly, which suddenly reminded her of herself back then.
At that Age, she was also about fifteen or sixteen years old. She was recognized and taken back by her Old Dad, who was in a high position of power. It took her a month to complete the dense Tattoo. She endured it by gritting her teeth, relying entirely on the Perseverance gained from the bitterness in her Heart and her Expectation for the Future.
Ubu Saika felt the burning Pain in her Back and said with a smile, "No Need, I can still bear it."
Compared to being abandoned, that's nothing.
She just regretted a bit that if she hadn't been able to see Raki last night, and if Raki hadn't listened to her talk about the Worry in her Heart, she would have been able to endure it even more.
Those Matters, she didn't want to Say to Kurahashi Kenichi.
Perhaps it was because her Mother repeated day after day that her Father was an irresponsible Man who had Leave them. Even though she could feel Kurahashi Kenichi's regret and his Care About her, she still couldn't feel close to him.
"Whether or Not to add some other Color?" Takayama Otome didn't know what Ubu Saika was Think in her Heart, but she liked resilient Girls, and her Tone unconsciously softened a lot. "Add some Red to the Pattern, the Pain is the same, but it will look more like a Fox Mask. If you like other Colors, I can also help you Adjust it, orange, Blue, Purple..."
Ubu Saika shook her Head, "No, just Black. He Seemingly likes Black."
"Boyfriend?" Takayama Otome didn't insist anymore. The Needles on the Engraving Knife in her Hand pierced into the red and swollen Skin one by one, without showing mercy. She didn't want to ruin this Pattern by easing up on the Strength. With this Girl's stubbornness, if it was ruined, she would probably still fuss about how to fix it, which would be even more Painful.
"Hiss..." Ubu Saika gasped, "No."
"Then it's someone you like?" After Takayama Otome asked, seeing Ubu Saika's Silence, she continued, "Is he a Yakuza Member? If it's for Others, to suffer and leave behind something that can't be washed off for a Lifetime, that's too foolish."
"I just want to remember him," Ubu Saika's voice was very soft and serious, "He makes me feel that there is still Reliance and Meaning in my Life."
Takayama Otome chuckled, "How old are you? Acting like there's no Meaning to being alive?"
Ubu Saika Thought for a moment, is the Meaning of existence to be for the Father who Leave their Mother and Daughter? For the Mother who abandoned her? For those Friends who would just watch her being taken away when they encountered Troublesome situations? Or for the new Classmates now who can't really Understand her?
Keeping Secrets will lead to Isolate.
Fortunately, she had Raki. Even if they couldn't usually meet, at least it made her feel that there were still things worth Expectation in Life, and there was someone who could listen to her chatter, waiting for her to report Safety after returning Home before driving away in the Car.
Last night, after she sent the Email, she stood behind the Window, watching the Car parked on the Street leave. She saw very clearly that Raki left after waiting for her News and waiting for her Reply 'Safety'.
Takayama Otome didn't expect Ubu Saika to give her any meaningful answer either, and continued talking about Other Things, "Never Mind, it's too late for you to regret it now. Are you a High School Student?"
"Middle School Student," Ubu Saika frowned and endured the Pain, "A Student from Uehara Middle School."
"I regret it," Takayama Otome complained, "If someone reports it, I'll be in Troublesome."
(End of Chapter)
