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Chapter 468 This kid definitely has a problem!
Chi Feichei thought for a moment, "She once had a relative she depended on who died. Every time she cries, it's because of that relative, but I think although that's a reason, it's not the main reason. The main reason is that after losing her only reliance and spiritual sustenance, and leaving a familiar Environment, she found that the new Environment was incompatible with her, and even developed Self-Guilt..."
He had also seriously considered this point. When he learned of Akemi Miyano's death, Haibara Ai was not in despair. She had thought about resisting, she wanted a Statement, she was escaping the Organization, she had not thought about giving up on life. At that time, Haibara Ai was still strong.
Therefore, the main reason is not Akemi Miyano.
The reason why she cries every time Akemi Miyano is mentioned is probably because Haibara Ai is thinking - if her Older Sister hadn't died, no matter what she was like, at least there would still be someone who could love her, someone she could confide in when she was tired, someone who could Understand her, but that person is gone, gone forever...
Actually, crying for a Reason is better than aimless Depressed Mood.
"Self-Guilt?" Zhi Ming Fukuyama asked doubtfully, "Has she or her Family ever made any Mistake? A Mistake that hurt others?"
"Doctor Fukuyama," Chi Feichei's Tone became colder.
"Okay, okay, I won't ask further," Doctor Fukuyama laughed, "I'm a bit used to it. Then should we consider whether the Cause of Illness is actually that Self-Guilt? She feels that she is a sinner, while others are pure and flawless, and others cannot accept someone like her."
"Yes, afterwards she also had the Idea that the World has no Place to Belong for her. And because of some Problems with the Group she originally belonged to, she worried that the people around her would be Damaged, so she had to deliberately stay away from others, while inwardly longing to be accepted," Chi Feichei said.
Zhi Ming Fukuyama said helplessly, "The Situation you described is a bit complicated, I don't quite Understand. Why does she think the people around her will be Damaged? And Self-Guilt, she previously..."
"Doctor Fukuyama," Chi Feichei reminded again.
This time, Zhi Ming Fukuyama didn't laugh, and sighed, "If you don't Say it clearly, I can't tell you the accurate Answer..."
"I've tried everything," Chi Feichei said.
Doctor Fukuyama: "..."
Meow meow meow?
What does this mean?
Chi Feichei explained his Method of handling it.
First, regarding Akemi Miyano's death, he had guided Haibara Ai to try to accept Memory and treat Memory as a part of Life.
Then there's Self-Guilt. He let Haibara Ai See that he wasn't much better either, and there are many people in this World who are not pure and flawless.
After that, it can also involve the Problem of Place to Belong.
He wanted to secretly instill an Idea in Haibara Ai: the World is so big, it's not just Conan and his Group. If they don't accept something, someone else will always accept it. Whether it's to find true Fellow Birds or stay here and seek common ground while accepting Differences, there won't be no Place to Belong.
If that doesn't work, we might as well become black people, Home Delivery is super cool!
Moreover, there's also the matter of 'Forest Princess'. Haibara Ai would more or less feel that it could be a Place to Belong.
Finally, there's the Problem of the Organization.
Haibara Ai is worried about implicating the people around her.
This cannot be resolved for the Time being, because he cannot resolve the Organization yet.
What's more, it's not necessarily a good thing for him to run off and resolve the Organization alone. He needs to let Haibara Ai participate a little, fight monsters together, so that Haibara Ai will be more Courageous and strong in the future.
However, getting Haibara Ai to participate in this last point is the most difficult, and requires Haibara Ai herself to have the Courage to face it.
When Chi Feichei spoke, he slightly adjusted his Statement.
He described the Organization as a Group of delinquent students...
"You are Male, and different from her. You want her to Understand what facing and Courage is from other Girls, and there's no Problem with that," Doctor Fukuyama smiled, but soon his Tone became serious again, "But what you said before, letting her go and interact with those people alone, isn't just to make her try to be a little more Courageous, but you've also discovered a Problem, right?"
"Yes, I interfered too much," Chi Feichei said.
"Yes, you interfered too much. You took her to interact with other people, wanting to prove that she can be accepted, but when her Emotion Burst, she might again develop Self Doubt, feeling that people are accepting you, not her, and without you, she's still the same as before, still has no Place to Belong," Doctor Fukuyama paused, "Many people, when seeking help from a Psychologist, when receiving help, will regard the Doctor as a Rope that can save them and bring them ashore, wanting to hold on tightly. And one point that Psychologists must abide by is that they must not establish any Relationship with the help-seeker other than consultation. This is not being unsympathetic, but because at this Time, Patients are too easily develop Good Impression towards Doctors. If the Doctor has any bad Intentions, they can completely Subdue the Patient, completely Subdue them. Judging from your words and Behavior, you have not developed Romance Emotion towards her, so what about her?"
Chi Feichei thought back seriously again, "No, I'm sure. There is Reliance, but it's probably treating me as an Older Brother or something."
"Okay," Doctor Fukuyama temporarily believed Chi Feichei's Judgment, although Chi Feichei has never had a Romance Record, and he doesn't think Chi Feichei can Judge accurately, but that can be resolved slowly. Now there's a more serious Problem, "There's another Problem, letting her face it alone... isn't it a bit rushed? Since you were the one who took her to interact with them at the beginning, there should be a buffer stage, take it slowly. You need to know that if she summons Courage to take that step, and gets the Outcome you and she want, that's certainly a good thing, but if she doesn't get the recognition or the expected Outcome, the blow to her will be devastating, and she may very well deny everything before, and the Situation will also worsen. Alas, a fifty-fifty chance, you shouldn't gamble..."
"What if I said, I'm not gambling?" Chi Feichei asked back.
"You arranged someone?" Doctor Fukuyama asked doubtfully, and reminded, "If she finds out, it will be very bad. She will feel that the Situation that had improved in the past was all deception and Pretense, and she will also start to deny everything..."
"I didn't arrange anyone," Chi Feichei turned his Head to Look at the Sea, "I just believe that Group of people can give me and her the Outcome we want, I'm sure."
"You're so Confidence?" Doctor Fukuyama was a little surprised. It's really not easy to hear the word 'believe' from Chi Feichei's mouth.
"Yes," Chi Feichei responded, and then changed the Topic, "Doctor Fukuyama, in addition to not establishing any Relationship with the help-seeker other than consultation, there are two other points: not to discriminate against the help-seeker for any Reason, and to abide by the principle of Confidentiality."
Doctor Fukuyama previously also told Doctor Agasa and them about his Situation... Come on, explain it to him!
Doctor Fukuyama: "..."
What can he do?
Chi Feichei has been silently resisting him and resisting Treatment, and even had the Idea of studying Psychology. He's just too persevering.
Based on this perseverance, he believes that Chi Feichei's Depression is definitely better.
It's just that he's depressed.
In the last Inspection, although Chi Feichei had some minor Problems, there were no major Problems in general.
He doesn't believe that Medical Report is real. Not only does it not conform to the expected Procedure of Mentality changes, but Time Perception Disorder still exists.
This kid definitely has a Problem!
It's just that Chi Feichei has grown too fast, and can actually deceive the Machine and various Inspections. He can't restrain Chi Feichei anymore. And because of some potential Danger in Chi Feichei himself, he feels it's necessary to remind the people Chi Feichei will come into contact with.
Once it is discovered that the help-seeker has a Situation that endangers their own and others' Safety, necessary Measures must be taken or consultations with other Psychologists must be made to prevent Accidents from happening. For this Reason, a little bit of Illness can be slightly disclosed, and he has also limited the degree of exposure of Confidentiality Information to the minimum. Regarding Chi Feichei's Family Situation, the Investigation of Chi Feichei at School before, etc., he just mentioned them casually.
Logically speaking, if he feels he can't do it, then he should discuss it with Chi Feichei and transfer him to other Doctors. But Chi Feichei's Medical Report is there, and other Doctors have no way to keep Chi Feichei in Hospitalization for Observation.
Moreover, no one wants to take over Chi Feichei, this thorny Patient.
He is also not at ease.
Aoyama Fourth Hospital's Ability is already strong enough, and he is also a veteran Physician in it. Even he finds this Patient troublesome and terrifying, and others probably have no Method either.
He is also a little worried that inexperienced Doctors might instead be misled by Chi Feichei.
He came to America for exchange and study, firstly because of the Masuyama Kenzo incident. He Understands that if he doesn't leave for a period of Time and express that he will maintain Confidentiality to the end, Shinchi Group will not be at ease. Secondly, it's because he also wants to go abroad for exchange and study. It's a good thing to have someone pay for his studies.
There is another Reason. He wants to come to America to study and exchange Ideas, to see if he can solve the Problem of Chi Feichei, this thorny Patient.
Unfortunately, he can't Say these Words directly, otherwise Chi Feichei will definitely Say 'So Doctor Fukuyama, you think I'm Danger?', and the Trust that was so hard to build will be gone again.
Now that Chi Feichei can talk to him about his feelings back then and Say so much, he feels it's very rare.
Can't rush, can't rush. The Mistake made before cannot be made a second Time...
Doctor Fukuyama reminded himself to be patient and joked, "Then you won't Report me, will you?"
"No need." Chi Feichei Saw a Seagull flying in the sky and paused for a moment.
The Seagull chirped and landed, drinking Water from a small basin on the Deck.
"Doctor, the results are out."
"Oh?" Doctor Fukuyama quickly asked, "How's the Situation?"
"Good News."
...
On the Beach, Haibara Ai was lying on a beach chair, startled by a Group of people suddenly popping up beside her.
"Haibara, Ran said you're not feeling unwell, so are you unhappy?" Ayumi asked.
"No, Haibara is always like this, she won't tell us even if she's unwell," Genta said speechlessly, "You must Say it if you're unwell, otherwise it will make people very worried, okay?"
Haibara Ai was stunned for a moment.
Worried...
"Maybe it's because Brother Hichiji didn't come, so you're unhappy?" Mitsuhiko guessed.
"That Fellow is just like that, likes to be busy," Conan Half-Moon Eyes, "Why don't we just play?"
"Because we really don't Understand what's wrong with you," Suzuki Sonoko said with her arms crossed, "We discussed it for a long Time and got no result, so we simply came directly to ask you. Little Girl should be more lively, why are you learning to be profound like Brother Hichiji..."
Haibara Ai was silent.
The Whispering of that Group of people just now was not because she performed badly and was disliked, but... because they were worried about her?
"It's okay if you don't want to Say it," Ran smiled and handed an Ice Cream to Haibara Ai, "I don't think we can leave you here alone feeling depressed. How about we Keep Company with you for a while?"
"Let's sit for a while too," Ayumi turned her Head to Look at Genta, Mitsuhiko, and Conan, "Anyway, we're tired of playing too."
Haibara Ai took the Ice Cream handed over by Ran, looked down at it, then looked up at Ran, "Thank You... Ran."
"You're welcome," Ran replied with a smile.
...
"Perhaps it's because of me that their Relationship is much better, but she must Understand that she has long been regarded as a Companion by that Group of people..."
On the Yacht Deck, Chi Feichei was still sitting on the beach chair, on the Call with Zhi Ming Fukuyama.
So, even if there are some Idea Conflicts, he also feels that it's really good to have such a Group of people in this World.
(End of Chapter)
Chi Feichei thought for a moment, "She once had a relative she depended on who died. Every time she cries, it's because of that relative, but I think although that's a reason, it's not the main reason. The main reason is that after losing her only reliance and spiritual sustenance, and leaving a familiar Environment, she found that the new Environment was incompatible with her, and even developed Self-Guilt..."
He had also seriously considered this point. When he learned of Akemi Miyano's death, Haibara Ai was not in despair. She had thought about resisting, she wanted a Statement, she was escaping the Organization, she had not thought about giving up on life. At that time, Haibara Ai was still strong.
Therefore, the main reason is not Akemi Miyano.
The reason why she cries every time Akemi Miyano is mentioned is probably because Haibara Ai is thinking - if her Older Sister hadn't died, no matter what she was like, at least there would still be someone who could love her, someone she could confide in when she was tired, someone who could Understand her, but that person is gone, gone forever...
Actually, crying for a Reason is better than aimless Depressed Mood.
"Self-Guilt?" Zhi Ming Fukuyama asked doubtfully, "Has she or her Family ever made any Mistake? A Mistake that hurt others?"
"Doctor Fukuyama," Chi Feichei's Tone became colder.
"Okay, okay, I won't ask further," Doctor Fukuyama laughed, "I'm a bit used to it. Then should we consider whether the Cause of Illness is actually that Self-Guilt? She feels that she is a sinner, while others are pure and flawless, and others cannot accept someone like her."
"Yes, afterwards she also had the Idea that the World has no Place to Belong for her. And because of some Problems with the Group she originally belonged to, she worried that the people around her would be Damaged, so she had to deliberately stay away from others, while inwardly longing to be accepted," Chi Feichei said.
Zhi Ming Fukuyama said helplessly, "The Situation you described is a bit complicated, I don't quite Understand. Why does she think the people around her will be Damaged? And Self-Guilt, she previously..."
"Doctor Fukuyama," Chi Feichei reminded again.
This time, Zhi Ming Fukuyama didn't laugh, and sighed, "If you don't Say it clearly, I can't tell you the accurate Answer..."
"I've tried everything," Chi Feichei said.
Doctor Fukuyama: "..."
Meow meow meow?
What does this mean?
Chi Feichei explained his Method of handling it.
First, regarding Akemi Miyano's death, he had guided Haibara Ai to try to accept Memory and treat Memory as a part of Life.
Then there's Self-Guilt. He let Haibara Ai See that he wasn't much better either, and there are many people in this World who are not pure and flawless.
After that, it can also involve the Problem of Place to Belong.
He wanted to secretly instill an Idea in Haibara Ai: the World is so big, it's not just Conan and his Group. If they don't accept something, someone else will always accept it. Whether it's to find true Fellow Birds or stay here and seek common ground while accepting Differences, there won't be no Place to Belong.
If that doesn't work, we might as well become black people, Home Delivery is super cool!
Moreover, there's also the matter of 'Forest Princess'. Haibara Ai would more or less feel that it could be a Place to Belong.
Finally, there's the Problem of the Organization.
Haibara Ai is worried about implicating the people around her.
This cannot be resolved for the Time being, because he cannot resolve the Organization yet.
What's more, it's not necessarily a good thing for him to run off and resolve the Organization alone. He needs to let Haibara Ai participate a little, fight monsters together, so that Haibara Ai will be more Courageous and strong in the future.
However, getting Haibara Ai to participate in this last point is the most difficult, and requires Haibara Ai herself to have the Courage to face it.
When Chi Feichei spoke, he slightly adjusted his Statement.
He described the Organization as a Group of delinquent students...
"You are Male, and different from her. You want her to Understand what facing and Courage is from other Girls, and there's no Problem with that," Doctor Fukuyama smiled, but soon his Tone became serious again, "But what you said before, letting her go and interact with those people alone, isn't just to make her try to be a little more Courageous, but you've also discovered a Problem, right?"
"Yes, I interfered too much," Chi Feichei said.
"Yes, you interfered too much. You took her to interact with other people, wanting to prove that she can be accepted, but when her Emotion Burst, she might again develop Self Doubt, feeling that people are accepting you, not her, and without you, she's still the same as before, still has no Place to Belong," Doctor Fukuyama paused, "Many people, when seeking help from a Psychologist, when receiving help, will regard the Doctor as a Rope that can save them and bring them ashore, wanting to hold on tightly. And one point that Psychologists must abide by is that they must not establish any Relationship with the help-seeker other than consultation. This is not being unsympathetic, but because at this Time, Patients are too easily develop Good Impression towards Doctors. If the Doctor has any bad Intentions, they can completely Subdue the Patient, completely Subdue them. Judging from your words and Behavior, you have not developed Romance Emotion towards her, so what about her?"
Chi Feichei thought back seriously again, "No, I'm sure. There is Reliance, but it's probably treating me as an Older Brother or something."
"Okay," Doctor Fukuyama temporarily believed Chi Feichei's Judgment, although Chi Feichei has never had a Romance Record, and he doesn't think Chi Feichei can Judge accurately, but that can be resolved slowly. Now there's a more serious Problem, "There's another Problem, letting her face it alone... isn't it a bit rushed? Since you were the one who took her to interact with them at the beginning, there should be a buffer stage, take it slowly. You need to know that if she summons Courage to take that step, and gets the Outcome you and she want, that's certainly a good thing, but if she doesn't get the recognition or the expected Outcome, the blow to her will be devastating, and she may very well deny everything before, and the Situation will also worsen. Alas, a fifty-fifty chance, you shouldn't gamble..."
"What if I said, I'm not gambling?" Chi Feichei asked back.
"You arranged someone?" Doctor Fukuyama asked doubtfully, and reminded, "If she finds out, it will be very bad. She will feel that the Situation that had improved in the past was all deception and Pretense, and she will also start to deny everything..."
"I didn't arrange anyone," Chi Feichei turned his Head to Look at the Sea, "I just believe that Group of people can give me and her the Outcome we want, I'm sure."
"You're so Confidence?" Doctor Fukuyama was a little surprised. It's really not easy to hear the word 'believe' from Chi Feichei's mouth.
"Yes," Chi Feichei responded, and then changed the Topic, "Doctor Fukuyama, in addition to not establishing any Relationship with the help-seeker other than consultation, there are two other points: not to discriminate against the help-seeker for any Reason, and to abide by the principle of Confidentiality."
Doctor Fukuyama previously also told Doctor Agasa and them about his Situation... Come on, explain it to him!
Doctor Fukuyama: "..."
What can he do?
Chi Feichei has been silently resisting him and resisting Treatment, and even had the Idea of studying Psychology. He's just too persevering.
Based on this perseverance, he believes that Chi Feichei's Depression is definitely better.
It's just that he's depressed.
In the last Inspection, although Chi Feichei had some minor Problems, there were no major Problems in general.
He doesn't believe that Medical Report is real. Not only does it not conform to the expected Procedure of Mentality changes, but Time Perception Disorder still exists.
This kid definitely has a Problem!
It's just that Chi Feichei has grown too fast, and can actually deceive the Machine and various Inspections. He can't restrain Chi Feichei anymore. And because of some potential Danger in Chi Feichei himself, he feels it's necessary to remind the people Chi Feichei will come into contact with.
Once it is discovered that the help-seeker has a Situation that endangers their own and others' Safety, necessary Measures must be taken or consultations with other Psychologists must be made to prevent Accidents from happening. For this Reason, a little bit of Illness can be slightly disclosed, and he has also limited the degree of exposure of Confidentiality Information to the minimum. Regarding Chi Feichei's Family Situation, the Investigation of Chi Feichei at School before, etc., he just mentioned them casually.
Logically speaking, if he feels he can't do it, then he should discuss it with Chi Feichei and transfer him to other Doctors. But Chi Feichei's Medical Report is there, and other Doctors have no way to keep Chi Feichei in Hospitalization for Observation.
Moreover, no one wants to take over Chi Feichei, this thorny Patient.
He is also not at ease.
Aoyama Fourth Hospital's Ability is already strong enough, and he is also a veteran Physician in it. Even he finds this Patient troublesome and terrifying, and others probably have no Method either.
He is also a little worried that inexperienced Doctors might instead be misled by Chi Feichei.
He came to America for exchange and study, firstly because of the Masuyama Kenzo incident. He Understands that if he doesn't leave for a period of Time and express that he will maintain Confidentiality to the end, Shinchi Group will not be at ease. Secondly, it's because he also wants to go abroad for exchange and study. It's a good thing to have someone pay for his studies.
There is another Reason. He wants to come to America to study and exchange Ideas, to see if he can solve the Problem of Chi Feichei, this thorny Patient.
Unfortunately, he can't Say these Words directly, otherwise Chi Feichei will definitely Say 'So Doctor Fukuyama, you think I'm Danger?', and the Trust that was so hard to build will be gone again.
Now that Chi Feichei can talk to him about his feelings back then and Say so much, he feels it's very rare.
Can't rush, can't rush. The Mistake made before cannot be made a second Time...
Doctor Fukuyama reminded himself to be patient and joked, "Then you won't Report me, will you?"
"No need." Chi Feichei Saw a Seagull flying in the sky and paused for a moment.
The Seagull chirped and landed, drinking Water from a small basin on the Deck.
"Doctor, the results are out."
"Oh?" Doctor Fukuyama quickly asked, "How's the Situation?"
"Good News."
...
On the Beach, Haibara Ai was lying on a beach chair, startled by a Group of people suddenly popping up beside her.
"Haibara, Ran said you're not feeling unwell, so are you unhappy?" Ayumi asked.
"No, Haibara is always like this, she won't tell us even if she's unwell," Genta said speechlessly, "You must Say it if you're unwell, otherwise it will make people very worried, okay?"
Haibara Ai was stunned for a moment.
Worried...
"Maybe it's because Brother Hichiji didn't come, so you're unhappy?" Mitsuhiko guessed.
"That Fellow is just like that, likes to be busy," Conan Half-Moon Eyes, "Why don't we just play?"
"Because we really don't Understand what's wrong with you," Suzuki Sonoko said with her arms crossed, "We discussed it for a long Time and got no result, so we simply came directly to ask you. Little Girl should be more lively, why are you learning to be profound like Brother Hichiji..."
Haibara Ai was silent.
The Whispering of that Group of people just now was not because she performed badly and was disliked, but... because they were worried about her?
"It's okay if you don't want to Say it," Ran smiled and handed an Ice Cream to Haibara Ai, "I don't think we can leave you here alone feeling depressed. How about we Keep Company with you for a while?"
"Let's sit for a while too," Ayumi turned her Head to Look at Genta, Mitsuhiko, and Conan, "Anyway, we're tired of playing too."
Haibara Ai took the Ice Cream handed over by Ran, looked down at it, then looked up at Ran, "Thank You... Ran."
"You're welcome," Ran replied with a smile.
...
"Perhaps it's because of me that their Relationship is much better, but she must Understand that she has long been regarded as a Companion by that Group of people..."
On the Yacht Deck, Chi Feichei was still sitting on the beach chair, on the Call with Zhi Ming Fukuyama.
So, even if there are some Idea Conflicts, he also feels that it's really good to have such a Group of people in this World.
(End of Chapter)
