Reading settings
Chapter 541: Complex but Human Heart
Joshua didn't know Hissashi was extremely dissatisfied and continued saying, "...The Snake said to the Woman: 'Did God really say that you are not allowed to eat fruit from any Tree in the Garden?'"
The Woman said to the Snake: 'We can eat fruit from the Trees in the Garden, but only the fruit from the Tree in the middle of the Garden, God said: 'You must not eat it, nor touch it, lest you die.''
The Snake said to the Woman: 'You will not necessarily die, because God knows that on the day you eat it, your Eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, able to know Good and Evil.'"
"So, the Woman saw that the fruit of that Tree was good for Food and pleasing to the Eyes, and also desirable for gaining Wisdom, so she took some of its fruit and ate it. She also gave some to her Husband, who was with her, and he ate it."
"Then the Eyes of both of them were opened, and they Realize they were naked; so they sewed Fig Tree leaves together and made coverings for themselves."
"Then the man and his Wife heard the Sound of the Jehovah God as he was walking in the Garden in the cool of the Day, and they hid among the Trees of the Garden to Dodge the Gaze of the Jehovah God."
"But the Jehovah God called to the man and said to him, 'Where are you?'"
"He answered, 'I heard your Sound in the Garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.'"
"And he said, 'Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the Tree that I commanded you not to eat from?'"
"The man said, 'The Woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the Tree, and I ate it.'"
"Then the Jehovah God said to the Woman, 'What is this you have done?'"
"The Woman said, 'The Snake deceived me, and I ate.'"
"So the Jehovah God said to the Snake, 'Because you have done this, you are cursed more than all Livestock and all Wild Beast! You will crawl on your belly and you will eat Dust all the Days of your life. And I will put enmity between you and the Woman, and between your offspring and hers; he will strike your Head, and you will strike his Foot.'"
"..."
Hissashi couldn't help but interrupt again, "Master, that's too much! Who eats Earth? I never eat Earth, Earthworms eat Earth, does he even understand?"
Chi Feichei: "..."
Hissashi was actually listening so seriously.
Feimo smacked his lips, "So annoying."
Chi Feichei: "..."
Okay, Feimo was also listening quite seriously.
"...To the Woman he said, 'I will make your pains in childbearing very severe; with painful labor you will give birth to Children. Your desire will be for your Husband, and he will rule over you.'"
"To Adam he said, 'Because you listened to your Wife and ate fruit from the Tree about which I commanded you, 'You must not eat from it,' cursed is the ground because of you; through painful toil you will eat Food from it all the Days of your life. It will produce Thorns and Thistles for you, and you will eat the Vegetables of the field. By the sweat of your brow you will eat your Bread until you return to the Earth, since from it you were taken; for Dust you are and to Dust you will return.'"
Joshua recited peacefully, his unhurried Speech Pattern probably already a habit.
"Adam named his Wife Eve, because she would become the mother of all the living."
"The Jehovah God made Clothes of Leather for Adam and his Wife and clothed them."
"And the Jehovah God said, 'The man has now become like one of us, knowing Good and Evil. He must not be allowed to Reach Out his Hand and take also from the Tree of Life and eat, and live forever.'" ...”
"The Snake said eating it wouldn't necessarily lead to death, and people indeed didn't die. The Snake said eating it would make them like God, knowing Good and Evil, and people indeed knew Good and Evil after eating it," Chi Feichei walked to the Wall Side, looking at the pile of Things, and said calmly.
Chi Feichei continued speaking, his Tone still calm, as if stating a fact, "Joshua, people should Understand how to distinguish Good and Evil, think carefully, who is it that wants to help people? Who is it that deceives and curses people?"
Before deceiving people, one must do their homework and find a breakthrough point.
"I..." Joshua lowered his Head even further, his Gaze firm, "I am willing to dedicate my life's Loyalty to you, I came here for this purpose. 60 years ago, I was born, my Parents were devout Christian Believer, they named me Joshua, they told me it Means 'God helps', and also Means a shy, intelligent, Independent, loyal Believer."
"I received Baptism at birth to wash away Sin. In this life, I believe in the Commandment, guiding people to goodness, telling them to worship him, serve him. Apart from him, I have no other God. I do not worship any other Divine Statue, nor covet anything that belongs to others... I am his disciple, yet he abandoned me."
"The people I once Reach Out to help, they denied everything I did that Day, they rushed into my Patient Room, accusing me of being a sinner, they smashed my Things, and beat me."
"The people I once treated with love and tolerance, they flaunted their power at me with ferocious Expressions."
"The vagrants I once provided Bread and Clear Water to were also mocking and ridiculing me."
"My God, my Lord, I prayed in my Heart, Expectation them to Check on his Believer."
"God did not See my Predicament, did not remember my efforts, he did not hear my Voice."
"At that time, I was still abiding by his teachings, I was Still patient and lenient. I went to the Church for Repentance, but God completely abandoned me, he nailed me to the Stake."
...
Chi Feichei listened quietly.
What truly caused Joshua's Belief to collapse was actually people, Fellow Birds within a certain Group.
Some say that a person who has done many evils can be Praised for doing one good deed, while a person who has always done good deeds will be scorned for doing just one evil deed.
This phenomenon exists, but in fact, when a person who has done many evils does a good deed, people will also Suspect his Motive, Suspect that he is just acting on impulse, and their Hearts will Still not forgive him or Trust him so readily. It's Just that they want to prevent this person who might Damage them from damaging them again, so they give encouragement; while a good person who does an evil deed, people also Know that it is Just a mistake, Know his essence. But precisely because they Know he is good, people dare to unreservedly reveal their own Malice.
People All have a herd Mentality, and the Standard of Good and Evil recognized by the general public will also be the Standard for Evaluation Good and Evil in individual Subconscious.
If this Standard is represented by scores, adding for good, subtracting for evil, then most people are above the passing line. Out of a total score of 100, most people are at 60 points.
Some people want to raise everyone's scores, those are benevolent people with a heart for the world, naturally there are also people who are not so selfless and generous.
For people at 40 or 50 points, those people feel contempt in their Hearts, and also feel that the other party is not worthy to be with them, not worthy to be compared with them, so they are naturally more tolerant.
30 points is a boundary.
For people at 10 or 20 points, those people will find it incredible, either worrying about being corrupted and staying away, or feeling that these people will lower the overall score, wanting to try to pull them up, or feeling that these 10 or 20 point people should be eliminated.
And for existences like the Organization with an average negative score, those people will feel terror, unable to imagine that someone can score negative points, while thinking about quickly eliminating them, they are also afraid of that Mentality that can score negative points.
Not to mention anything else, Gin alone is enough to pull down the Organization's overall score by 80 points... cough, anyway, seeing a Group of people with an overall negative score of nearly 100 points, more or less there is a feeling of being frightened, right?
Speaking further up.
For people at 70 points, these people don't take it seriously, they are jealous, but firmly believe that it's not that they can't do it, Just that they are unwilling or haven't done it.
For people at 80 or 90 points, these people Realize that they may not be able to do it, admiring them, occasionally also feeling inferior, and then annoyed by their own inferiority. When the Opportunity to make the other party lose points arrives, in order to maintain that little balance in their Hearts, they will pull that person down, exaggerate the Stain to criticize, and try to lower more points, making him the Same as everyone else, so they can comfort Oneself: Look, people at 80 or 90 points are also the Same as me!
And for people at 100 points, in order to cater to their own Fantasy of perfection in their Hearts, they are reluctant to let that kind of person lose even one point, becoming imperfect, so that person becomes a saint.
Even for people at 99 points, these people also feel that it is a flaw, an uncomfortable flaw, and want to exaggerate their contributions, trying to make up for that one point.
Of course, there are also some people who try to raise everyone's average score, and there are also some people who try to lower everyone's scores. There are compassionate people, and there are also people who hold Resentment against any score.
Complex but Human Heart.
But in general, in Joshua's specific Group, Joshua was that person with 80-plus points. When they Discovery they could pull him down, many people did so.
'Pull him down, he is also the Same as us, I won't feel inferior when facing him anymore.'
'What I can't do, he also can't do, yes, he's not that good...'
'I haven't been abandoned or punished by God, he has, indicating that he is more worthless than me, great, the Feeling that he was superior to me before was Just an illusion...'
'Everyone dislikes him, if I Performance even more dislike for him, everyone should agree and Praise me...'
They didn't Really think Joshua was that unforgivable, Just venting the Malice in their Hearts, comforting themselves, joining in the Excitement, and seeking attention.
"...I saw clearly their Appearance," Joshua was Still recounting, "I feel unworthy of the suffering I once endured, the anger I swallowed. I Don't Understand what I have been doing for so many years, what I have done. I began to loathe everything about my past, loathe those Statement, even loathe the Name Joshua..."
(End of Chapter)
Joshua didn't know Hissashi was extremely dissatisfied and continued saying, "...The Snake said to the Woman: 'Did God really say that you are not allowed to eat fruit from any Tree in the Garden?'"
The Woman said to the Snake: 'We can eat fruit from the Trees in the Garden, but only the fruit from the Tree in the middle of the Garden, God said: 'You must not eat it, nor touch it, lest you die.''
The Snake said to the Woman: 'You will not necessarily die, because God knows that on the day you eat it, your Eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, able to know Good and Evil.'"
"So, the Woman saw that the fruit of that Tree was good for Food and pleasing to the Eyes, and also desirable for gaining Wisdom, so she took some of its fruit and ate it. She also gave some to her Husband, who was with her, and he ate it."
"Then the Eyes of both of them were opened, and they Realize they were naked; so they sewed Fig Tree leaves together and made coverings for themselves."
"Then the man and his Wife heard the Sound of the Jehovah God as he was walking in the Garden in the cool of the Day, and they hid among the Trees of the Garden to Dodge the Gaze of the Jehovah God."
"But the Jehovah God called to the man and said to him, 'Where are you?'"
"He answered, 'I heard your Sound in the Garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.'"
"And he said, 'Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the Tree that I commanded you not to eat from?'"
"The man said, 'The Woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the Tree, and I ate it.'"
"Then the Jehovah God said to the Woman, 'What is this you have done?'"
"The Woman said, 'The Snake deceived me, and I ate.'"
"So the Jehovah God said to the Snake, 'Because you have done this, you are cursed more than all Livestock and all Wild Beast! You will crawl on your belly and you will eat Dust all the Days of your life. And I will put enmity between you and the Woman, and between your offspring and hers; he will strike your Head, and you will strike his Foot.'"
"..."
Hissashi couldn't help but interrupt again, "Master, that's too much! Who eats Earth? I never eat Earth, Earthworms eat Earth, does he even understand?"
Chi Feichei: "..."
Hissashi was actually listening so seriously.
Feimo smacked his lips, "So annoying."
Chi Feichei: "..."
Okay, Feimo was also listening quite seriously.
"...To the Woman he said, 'I will make your pains in childbearing very severe; with painful labor you will give birth to Children. Your desire will be for your Husband, and he will rule over you.'"
"To Adam he said, 'Because you listened to your Wife and ate fruit from the Tree about which I commanded you, 'You must not eat from it,' cursed is the ground because of you; through painful toil you will eat Food from it all the Days of your life. It will produce Thorns and Thistles for you, and you will eat the Vegetables of the field. By the sweat of your brow you will eat your Bread until you return to the Earth, since from it you were taken; for Dust you are and to Dust you will return.'"
Joshua recited peacefully, his unhurried Speech Pattern probably already a habit.
"Adam named his Wife Eve, because she would become the mother of all the living."
"The Jehovah God made Clothes of Leather for Adam and his Wife and clothed them."
"And the Jehovah God said, 'The man has now become like one of us, knowing Good and Evil. He must not be allowed to Reach Out his Hand and take also from the Tree of Life and eat, and live forever.'" ...”
"The Snake said eating it wouldn't necessarily lead to death, and people indeed didn't die. The Snake said eating it would make them like God, knowing Good and Evil, and people indeed knew Good and Evil after eating it," Chi Feichei walked to the Wall Side, looking at the pile of Things, and said calmly.
Chi Feichei continued speaking, his Tone still calm, as if stating a fact, "Joshua, people should Understand how to distinguish Good and Evil, think carefully, who is it that wants to help people? Who is it that deceives and curses people?"
Before deceiving people, one must do their homework and find a breakthrough point.
"I..." Joshua lowered his Head even further, his Gaze firm, "I am willing to dedicate my life's Loyalty to you, I came here for this purpose. 60 years ago, I was born, my Parents were devout Christian Believer, they named me Joshua, they told me it Means 'God helps', and also Means a shy, intelligent, Independent, loyal Believer."
"I received Baptism at birth to wash away Sin. In this life, I believe in the Commandment, guiding people to goodness, telling them to worship him, serve him. Apart from him, I have no other God. I do not worship any other Divine Statue, nor covet anything that belongs to others... I am his disciple, yet he abandoned me."
"The people I once Reach Out to help, they denied everything I did that Day, they rushed into my Patient Room, accusing me of being a sinner, they smashed my Things, and beat me."
"The people I once treated with love and tolerance, they flaunted their power at me with ferocious Expressions."
"The vagrants I once provided Bread and Clear Water to were also mocking and ridiculing me."
"My God, my Lord, I prayed in my Heart, Expectation them to Check on his Believer."
"God did not See my Predicament, did not remember my efforts, he did not hear my Voice."
"At that time, I was still abiding by his teachings, I was Still patient and lenient. I went to the Church for Repentance, but God completely abandoned me, he nailed me to the Stake."
...
Chi Feichei listened quietly.
What truly caused Joshua's Belief to collapse was actually people, Fellow Birds within a certain Group.
Some say that a person who has done many evils can be Praised for doing one good deed, while a person who has always done good deeds will be scorned for doing just one evil deed.
This phenomenon exists, but in fact, when a person who has done many evils does a good deed, people will also Suspect his Motive, Suspect that he is just acting on impulse, and their Hearts will Still not forgive him or Trust him so readily. It's Just that they want to prevent this person who might Damage them from damaging them again, so they give encouragement; while a good person who does an evil deed, people also Know that it is Just a mistake, Know his essence. But precisely because they Know he is good, people dare to unreservedly reveal their own Malice.
People All have a herd Mentality, and the Standard of Good and Evil recognized by the general public will also be the Standard for Evaluation Good and Evil in individual Subconscious.
If this Standard is represented by scores, adding for good, subtracting for evil, then most people are above the passing line. Out of a total score of 100, most people are at 60 points.
Some people want to raise everyone's scores, those are benevolent people with a heart for the world, naturally there are also people who are not so selfless and generous.
For people at 40 or 50 points, those people feel contempt in their Hearts, and also feel that the other party is not worthy to be with them, not worthy to be compared with them, so they are naturally more tolerant.
30 points is a boundary.
For people at 10 or 20 points, those people will find it incredible, either worrying about being corrupted and staying away, or feeling that these people will lower the overall score, wanting to try to pull them up, or feeling that these 10 or 20 point people should be eliminated.
And for existences like the Organization with an average negative score, those people will feel terror, unable to imagine that someone can score negative points, while thinking about quickly eliminating them, they are also afraid of that Mentality that can score negative points.
Not to mention anything else, Gin alone is enough to pull down the Organization's overall score by 80 points... cough, anyway, seeing a Group of people with an overall negative score of nearly 100 points, more or less there is a feeling of being frightened, right?
Speaking further up.
For people at 70 points, these people don't take it seriously, they are jealous, but firmly believe that it's not that they can't do it, Just that they are unwilling or haven't done it.
For people at 80 or 90 points, these people Realize that they may not be able to do it, admiring them, occasionally also feeling inferior, and then annoyed by their own inferiority. When the Opportunity to make the other party lose points arrives, in order to maintain that little balance in their Hearts, they will pull that person down, exaggerate the Stain to criticize, and try to lower more points, making him the Same as everyone else, so they can comfort Oneself: Look, people at 80 or 90 points are also the Same as me!
And for people at 100 points, in order to cater to their own Fantasy of perfection in their Hearts, they are reluctant to let that kind of person lose even one point, becoming imperfect, so that person becomes a saint.
Even for people at 99 points, these people also feel that it is a flaw, an uncomfortable flaw, and want to exaggerate their contributions, trying to make up for that one point.
Of course, there are also some people who try to raise everyone's average score, and there are also some people who try to lower everyone's scores. There are compassionate people, and there are also people who hold Resentment against any score.
Complex but Human Heart.
But in general, in Joshua's specific Group, Joshua was that person with 80-plus points. When they Discovery they could pull him down, many people did so.
'Pull him down, he is also the Same as us, I won't feel inferior when facing him anymore.'
'What I can't do, he also can't do, yes, he's not that good...'
'I haven't been abandoned or punished by God, he has, indicating that he is more worthless than me, great, the Feeling that he was superior to me before was Just an illusion...'
'Everyone dislikes him, if I Performance even more dislike for him, everyone should agree and Praise me...'
They didn't Really think Joshua was that unforgivable, Just venting the Malice in their Hearts, comforting themselves, joining in the Excitement, and seeking attention.
"...I saw clearly their Appearance," Joshua was Still recounting, "I feel unworthy of the suffering I once endured, the anger I swallowed. I Don't Understand what I have been doing for so many years, what I have done. I began to loathe everything about my past, loathe those Statement, even loathe the Name Joshua..."
(End of Chapter)
